Our six-year relationship had just ended.
The silence held by the room was broken only by the sound of my sobs.
I sulked and wallowed until my tear ducts went on strike.
On the third day I did what we millennial women do: I took a selfie.
I wanted to mark this day.
Here lies the girl who almost drowned in her tears but decided to make a choice.
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I read a passage from Ashtanga yoga teacherKino McGregorthat said, Change only happens in the present moment.
The past is already done and the future is just energy and intentions.
I knew a shift needed to happen.
With a weary spirit but determined mind,my renewed personal yoga journeybegan.
This time I committed to starting slow and focusing on consistency.
I had a brilliant yoga teacher ask in one class, When did you stop choosing?
The question stung, profound but painful.
This awareness brought about a desire to elect differently.
So what if I thought Id marry this person (Kanye shrug).
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I say it sarcastically, but Im seriousitsokay!
The yogi principle ofAparigraha, which translates into non-attachment, encourages us to take only what we need.
It taught me to be grateful for the journey and release anticipated outcomes.
Fixating on specific results is a recipe for disasterespecially results that arent in your control.
One was, Im grateful for the thrilling travel adventures we got to experience together.
After jotting down all five, I internally forgave him any debt I felt he owed me.
When we hoard people, things, and feelings, we weigh ourselves down with energetic and physical baggage.
These objects of our infatuation will not bring us long-lasting happiness.
That key in of joy can only be cultivated from within.
This perspective shift expanded what my practice looked like and freed me to be thankful for what was.
In class, I gave myself permission to simply move in a way that felt most intuitive.
Create space for the life you want
I found reprieve on my mat.
It was 60 minutes where I didnt have to think about my proverbial challenges.
For 60 minutes, I could stop ruminating on what he said and what I didnt say.
As my mind hooked into the flow, I began trying to link my breath with each movement.
This newfound courage guided me to a level of sensitivity I hadnt experienced before.
It was no longer about finding flexibility or strength, but coming into a full surrender of self.
Breaking open my capacity to lovelove myself, my body, and others.
My personal mantra became, I open myself fully to give and receive love.
My ability to remain resilient in difficult times has long been connected to my level of physical activity.
Its now two years later, and I am fully grounded in who I am.
Self-compassion and mindful movement became the pathway to emotional healing for me.
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